as soon as the colour was disappearing from her face, mummy couldn't take no more. I wanted to run. But saw it out to the end.and it killed me. and it stilll does now, the day after. it haunts me that could not hold you in your final breathe, and how much pain I put onto your dad by passing you to him. and soon as he saw what I saw, he broke and crumbled. we were sure you had passed, with each delayed breathe, but eventually, you breathed your last breath and It was a long pause, with no more breathes following,... I had to run. as soon as it was pronounced.